After reading and watching whatever there is to read and watch
about Michael I fully side with those who think him to be a completely
innocent man. But let me say it point blank even those
who don´t believe those crazy stories about him still seem
to be a little uneasy about why he would take anyone into his
bed.
WHY would he?
Let me word the question in a slightly different way and
why does everyone think it was HIM who took those children into
his bed? Why do they rule out the possibility of THEM pleading
with Michael for a unique opportunity to stay somewhere around
him and crawl into his bed whenever there was a chance
while he (as he always said in his interviews) slept on the floor
in the same room?
For many Michael´s fans it would be their most cherished
dream come true if they were allowed to stay beside their idol
day and night remember that those boys and girls were his
die-hard FANS, who were head over heals in love with their man.
Just imagine your own shrill at the opportunity of staying beside
someone you adore, let us say Marilyn Monroe or Brad Pitt
Knowing that Michael allowed the children who came to his ranch
many of whom were gravely or terminally ill to do
whatever they liked there, it is easy to imagine all the nagging,
wailing and pleading he must have constantly faced from them:
´Oh, Michael, please!´ Let us stay another hour, pleeeease!
It is so much fun! Why can´t we?´ The kind and gentle
guy, who often admitted he couldn´t say ´no´
to anyone, surely didn´t have the heart to refuse them.
Being a pure and innocent soul and a true believer in God he really
didn´t see any harm in those camp-like parties and sharing
his stately quarters with others in such a youth-hostel manner.
When someone is really innocent it does not even enter his mind
to think of something foul the way it is usual with us and
our crooked and dirty minds
Children know someone´s heart much better than the grown-ups
and it was no wonder that they followed Michael in crowds everywhere
he went. Lisa Maria Presley complained that children crawled into
every corner of their house and would not leave him alone even
if he went to the bathroom. I don´t doubt her word at all
firstly she is not that kind of a woman and secondly I
remember Michael´s concerts and what was going on there
with the audience. ADULT audience by the way
I´ve read that Michael changed his mind about cancelling
a concert in Moscow and agreed to give a show in the pouring rain
because of a small blind girl who had taken great pains to draw
his portrait and begged him to sign it before the concert. And
Michael just couldn´t say no to a child especially
if the child was handicapped or ill (as was the case with his
last accuser). Can you imagine him shutting the door in the face
of a sick child pleading for his help? I can´t
And
what if it is the child´s dying wish?
The impact of Michael´s innocence and purity, and the true
admiration for him on the part of the others were of such a scale
and magnitude that the parents of those children actually gave
their permission for the ´sleepovers´ and sometimes
took part in the event too. OK, so now that we see that there
was absolutely no way to cope with the problem for any of the
sides another question arises could Michael take advantage
of all the adulation and use it for some of his mean purposes?
Despite all the pressure from the prosecutor and the media there
were absolutely no facts to prove those child molestation suspicions
if a single bit of fact had been found Michael would never
have been acquitted so the outcome of the court hearings
is naturally a point in favour of Michael.
But as some people seem to have no respect for the factual side
of things or hold no belief in the American judicial system we´ll
have to look into the problem on the basis of what was said only
and this brings us to MICHAEL´S WORD against THE
WORD OF HIS ACCUSERS. To make this equation more accurate we´ll
have to deduct from the accusers´ part the fact that hundreds
of children refuted all allegations against Michael and never
gave their testimonies against him. Or should we rather add this
point to Michael´s part of the equation instead?
Now that we no longer have a chance to listen to Michael´s
side of the story, the only thing we can really do is listen to
the lyrics of his songs, his speeches and numerous poems as well
as some of his reflections put down on paper on various issues
and occasions. This is quite a big legacy and any scholar studying
these materials will tell you that a thinker or writer with such
a wealth of ´testimonials´ left behind him must surely
have dropped here and there an unwitting mark of his innermost
self which was intentionally hidden from the public eye (or unintentionally
closed even from himself).
You can always find these signs either between the lines of someone´s
writings or in a much straighter way like we see it in Nabokov´s
´Lolita´ (stating flatly an old man´s desire
for a 12 year-old girl) or Shakespeare´s sonnets which are
simply embarrassing to read as they reveal the author´s
clear passion not only for a woman but a man too
However after reading as much as I´ve read of Michael´s
lyrics and his other written ´evidence´ since the
moment he died (I wasn´t a fan of Michael Jackson before
that) I can testify on the Bible now that there is not a single
line in his works that can give rise to a slightest suspicion.
No, it is just the other way round. The more you read of him,
the surer the terrible guess is he was completely INNOCENT
to an extent we can´t even imagine
. What a shame on
all our heads
it´s almost like some 2000 years ago
with that old story repeating itself
Nothing learned, nothing
changed
. how could we
is there a way we can ever make
up for that?
The guess of an awful MISTAKE made turned with me into a clear
conviction after reading Michael´s speech at Oxford University
which made me burst into a never-ending torrent of bitter and
guilty tears: Oxford
University speech March 2001, by Michael Jackson
His graceful essay on the true faith in God and the miraculous
role of children in their parents´ lives was no better in
terms of tears and covering my head with dust: Dec.
07, 2000: My Childhood, My Sabbath, My Freedom
What an incredible surprise it was to find a pure and noble
soul and a deep thinker armored with phenomenal wisdom, infinite
kindness and an almost divine spirit in a man you used to think
to be a dancer and singer only! And whom you once suspected of
unspeakable crimes too
What an astonishment it was to see such a powerful nucleus
in this soft-spoken man whose words of love and forgiveness were
capable of creating an almost instant miracle over a 55-year-old
like you!
What a shock and anger it was to realize that this beautiful person
had to die for us to finally realize how shamelessly we had been
fooled all this time by the unscrupulous somebody who didn´t
give a damn for what they were doing to a completely innocent
man! Crucifying him for some 15 years so that we could have a
good laugh while drinking your morning coffee
.and never
taking the trouble to really find out what they were talking about
What a SHAME
. what an unspeakable shame
.
There are so many lies around us that we risk never be able to
learn the real truth unless we reach out for it ourselves and
find it by peeling off bias after bias, using our own brains (and
not someone else´s). And by listening to what our heart
tells us when the brain completely fails us. Actually this is
what Michael was always saying listen to what your heart
tells you before ever trying to pass judgment.
One day each of us will stand before God and answer for what we
have or haven´t done in our lives. Before that moment comes
we should try and make up for the wrongs we´ve done.
And this is the only reason for this blog.
Helena